One day, when i was going to sleep

I dont know why i suddenly had a strong feelings about

death.

I was only 18 this year and

death was something that never really came across my life.

For these 18 years,

i only knew that 2 of our beloved relative had pass away peacefully at the age over 90s

and

1 because of illness.

But

thoughts and feelings of being dying struck in my mind..

I realized that when ones' has died

he/she will not be able

to think

to see

to breathe

to sense anything..

Everything will be black and blank.

It was like ,

'Life is game , when time is up, it's GAMEOVER.

There is no retrying or to restart.'

And

i believe we wont be able to reincarnate or go near the God...

I dont why..

But this i what i am thinking before sleeping..

I think i should REALLY treasure everything right now

and

do what i really loves and want to do=)

ps casual thoughts..